A Lesson on Slowing Down
I'm not talking about in the car either. (Although my husband probably wishes that was my lesson, I have an affinity for accelerating). Anyway.... I recently had the great fortune to have my life come to a screeching halt. I do not begrudge it at all and I'm open to the lessons, truly.
I really thought that I had slowed my life down dramatically. I value peace and calm. I rarely overextend myself anymore or commit to things that I don't want to do. What I find is that I am still on somewhat of a hamster wheel. After a recent surgery, I have had a period of recovery. For one that has not had so much as a stitch, this has been enlightening to say the least. An injury last year, had me humbled as well but I was able to power through, keep going like a zombie chasing (an unarmed) Rick. Recovering from surgery is far different. Not only does your body have to slow down but your mind does as well. This was challenging as I am in the middle of life coach certification, starting my new Facebook page, working with my own coach, and of course my current HR job.
I'm really starting to see how I have reacted and handled things in the past vs. how I am handling things now. Before, I would have been completely derailed. If I laid in bed and questioned my decision or felt like it was too much work, that would be the moment I gave up. One particular day during my recovery, I was running a fever, laying in bed feeling like a blob. Those thoughts came to me... this is alot of work Julie, are you up for it? Did you make the right decision? Should you be doing this? I recognized these sneaky little lies. I recognized that I was tired and I didn't feel good. And no, this day, this moment, I didn't feel like doing any of this. But this will not last. I will recover, I will feel so much better now, I will be spinning on my hamster wheel soon enough.
I also think that sometimes when we do not take the time we need for ourselves, our bodies, the universe, whatever, says "let me help you" (wink,wink).... and we are otherwise forced to take the much needed break.
I have tried to relax into this. I gave myself many permissions. Permission to not feel guilty that I wasn't doing anything! Permission to watch Netflix, permission to sleep whenever I wanted, permission to not take work calls while I am convalescing. I chose my healing over anything else. It feels good that I am honoring my body. I desire to honor my mind more in the future as well. And when we can act with integrity toward ourselves, we can much better act with integrity toward others.
What are some ways that you can honor yourself?
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